HEALTH UPDATE: Mayo Clinic called and offered me an appointment! I will go see them in Rochester, MN in February after my first round of chemo. Port placement is tomorrow morning.
Ramblings:
What a day. So many calls. Being sick is a full time job…and I’m not doing half the work! Shout out to my friends and family that are helping me so much! It’s been very difficult to focus on what I need and where to start in order to save my life. I get so distracted with worries. I would describe it like a big black tornado being sucked into the ground. It wants to pull me in so bad and the sadness in my heart just wants to let go and swirl into the darkness. I can’t let that happen! I have many moments where I’m on the edge. I’m about to get sucked in but then something happens and I’m hopeful and determined again. So many wonderful things happen. My sweet Willow’s smile & laughter. My husband Tom’s loving but concerned puppy eyes. Family and friends supportive calls and texts. The support makes my heart happy and I’m so overwhelmed and appreciative.
Port day tomorrow. I’m not really excited about it. I’ve never had a problem going in for procedures or doctor appointments. The nurses and people are always so nice! I love being taken care of. I often refer to my visits as a day at the spa! This one has me a little grossed out though. There will be a two inch cut in my chest so they can slip the port under my skin. There goes my bikini bod! Lose the weight but get a scar. LOL. It sounds like a gas tank. Just hook up a hose to the port and let er loose. At least it’s logical. I can handle that. Once I heal from this procedure it’s chemo time! Weird side affects. Get this….sensitivity to COLD! No cold drinks. It will make my throat feel like it’s closing. Wait, what? Well ok then. If that is what it takes!
God bless you all, have sweet dreams and a pleasant tomorrow.
Keep the Faith 
Thinking of you today my dear friend. You got this. God and you have a special angel taking care of you. Love you.
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“Fight the good fight of the faith.” –1 Timothy 6:12
“Keep up your spirit, keep up your faith, baby
I am counting on you
You know what you’ve got to do
Fight the good fight every moment
Every minute every day
Fight the good fight every moment
It’s your only way.
All your life you’ve been waiting for your chance
Where you’ll fit into the plan
But you’re the master of your own destiny
So give and take the best that you can.” — Rik Emmett, Mike Levine, Gil Moore (Triumph)
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Please don’t be afraid to ask for help. I am thinking of you always and sending my prayers and best thoughts your way.
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You are truly an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Tom and I are with you, thinking of you, as well as Tom and Willow. ❤️
A continued link of prayers from all of us who care for you.
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You’ve totally got this Cathy! It’s hard to think of now, but the port will end up being a godsend! Thinking nothing but positive thoughts and so thankful you were able to get into Mayo ♥
It’s perfectly OK (and normal) to have those moments of darkness. Feel what you need to feel. Then Elsa that bitch and let it go!
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You’re awesome, thank you so much!
Spa well, you can do it!!!!!
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Cold drinks are not so good for you anyhow. Yay for the port! Go, Cathy! Omg, Mayo Clinic called you? Feel like the ROCKSTAR patient that you are. Get as much understanding of all this that you can, and find joy in taking excellent care of yourself in every way that you can. We want you around a long time to tell this great story of yours.
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