HEALTH UPDATE: Mayo Clinic called and offered me an appointment! I will go see them in Rochester, MN in February after my first round of chemo. Port placement is tomorrow morning.
What a day. So many calls. Being sick is a full time job…and I’m not doing half the work! Shout out to my friends and family that are helping me so much! It’s been very difficult to focus on what I need and where to start in order to save my life. I get so distracted with worries. I would describe it like a big black tornado being sucked into the ground. It wants to pull me in so bad and the sadness in my heart just wants to let go and swirl into the darkness. I can’t let that happen! I have many moments where I’m on the edge. I’m about to get sucked in but then something happens and I’m hopeful and determined again. So many wonderful things happen. My sweet Willow’s smile & laughter. My husband Tom’s loving but concerned puppy eyes. Family and friends supportive calls and texts. The support makes my heart happy and I’m so overwhelmed and appreciative.
Port day tomorrow. I’m not really excited about it. I’ve never had a problem going in for procedures or doctor appointments. The nurses and people are always so nice! I love being taken care of. I often refer to my visits as a day at the spa! This one has me a little grossed out though. There will be a two inch cut in my chest so they can slip the port under my skin. There goes my bikini bod! Lose the weight but get a scar. LOL. It sounds like a gas tank. Just hook up a hose to the port and let er loose. At least it’s logical. I can handle that. Once I heal from this procedure it’s chemo time! Weird side affects. Get this….sensitivity to COLD! No cold drinks. It will make my throat feel like it’s closing. Wait, what? Well ok then. If that is what it takes!
God bless you all, have sweet dreams and a pleasant tomorrow.